daydreamer;

“ Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it?
It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it
opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside
you and mess you up. You build up these defenses,
you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can
hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any
other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life.
You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it.
They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or
smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own any more.
Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out
and leaves you crying in the darkness, working its
way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
not just in the mind. It’s a soul hurt, a body hurt, a
real gets inside you and rips you apart pain. I hate love. ”